Sunday, April 30, 2006
Okay, considering the responses i'm getting. I think I better address the issue again. Plus, I did reflect on the issue somemore, and I have grown from that reflection. So, how do I start? Hmm...
Well, I know that sibling rivalry is no big deal. It happens all the time. I also know that my sis also experiences that rivalry. The only reason I felt so downright depressed was that during that period of time, I was feeling quite insecure about myself- questioning my self-worth. So when that comparision came along, from that insecurity came jealousy which built up the insecurity and the cycle goes on. Call it a phase or whatever you want, but I've got an inkling de vil played a part in it. I'm too lazy to type out the reason though, so if you want to know why I suspect that you can look for me.
Upon further reflection, I also realised that I focused so much on the negetive things he said that if he did praise me, I probably wouldn't have noticed. So I learnt to try not to sink too much into my depression. Though it is hard, I think you people out there need to pinch me or something if I'm being too depressed. Haha.
Another thing is, no, I haven't talked to my dad about it. It would be too awkward for me (and maybe him). The issue is resolved anyway, I've forgiven him. So it doesn't really matter. And I would really appreciate it if you would hush up about the matter because YES I'M FINE. Phoo, it's darn annoying when you say you're fine and people still ask if you are.
So! Let's put this behind us, let bygones be bygones, and my life shall go on!